Much as I hate it when my little ones stop sleeping well, or make life complicated in other ways, these trials push me to depend on God more. I can’t depend on my sleep, I have to depend on Him. I can’t depend on my patience, I have to seek Him for it when I am frazzled. I can’t depend on doing it right (any of the time, but I realise this more at these times) but have to trust that He can fill in the gaps with his grace.
Trials are inevitable in life. I hate that life has been so corrupted from the way it should be. There is so much that is beautiful, rich and wonderful in the world that it gives a glimpse of the way God created it, when it was new and fresh and sin free. I know that I am fortunate, very fortunate that the worst trials I am experiencing now are those which are part and parcel of having little ones.
In my tiredness, in my weakness, I run to Jesus, I beg at Him to help me, and I remember that I need to depend on him in all things, not just when I feel weak. When I feel joyful, strong, when I feel like I have things under control. Yet He is always there, lord and King of it all, loving and guiding his children though. The other night I found this beautiful version of ‘Oh I need Thee’, and snuggled under the duvet listening to this truth. I need Him in easy times and hard times, every hour.
This period of bad sleep may be temporary, fleeting or repeating, but I know that trials of all kinda will continue to come. And how I need Thee every hour, in good and in bad.
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