I spent over a year pursuing my creativity intentionally, selling on my Etsy shop and carving out time for painting and making before having a break. It’s pretty fun to think about how I started (with some moleskines and tote bags) and how things evolved and changed both deliberately and unconsciously along the way. Here’s a few things I learned along the way.
This year, I’ve learned that I am creative, and that creativity helps me with mothering.
That being the (creative) person that God made me helps me to be the kind of mother that God made me- not the ‘ideal’ mother, just myself. Flawed and imperfect but loving and creative and offering grace to myself and to others.
I’ve learned to embrace my style and to try not to envy others their talent or mothering. I do it my way and celebrate others doing it their way- that’s the beauty of us all being different. I’ve learnt that my style is simple, colourful, with flowers, watercolour foliage and to embrace my natural handwriting. I’ve remembered that making draft and idea sketches has enormous value but that often the first idea is my favourite. I’ve remembered how much I loved art lessons and how much I miss the art classrooms and resources. I’ve learned that I love creating- not recreating or trying to be a production line. I love when each thing is unique.
I’ve learned that I want to give and help and share more.
I’ve learned that it is slow and hard to really make any money from selling crafty things after postage, and costs unless you value your time. I’ve learned that my time and skill are valuable. I have finally understood why handmade things can be seen as expensive and understood the hard work behind them.
I’ve learned that it is really easy to admire and compare and envy others’ apparent ‘success’ and forgery your own definition of success. I’ve learned that I need to stop reading ‘advice’ on the internet. I’ve learned that authenticity is one of my favourite things. I’ve learned that I make mistakes and I have learned from them.
I have been inspired and challenged and frustrated and ecstatic.
I have learned that it is always possible to carve out time for what matters to you, regardless of what it is or how long you’ve forgotten it matters.
I have loved it and hated parts and I have been so so grateful for each customer and supporter. I have doubted myself and grown in confidence and in creative voice. I have learned that God will teach me in every circumstance. I still have a long way to go.