We are gradually, slowly getting our house more like our home, and I’m feeling more settled by the day. Yet at the same time I am starting to think about how much I am looking forward to owning our own house, and wondering what the situation will be in two years, when we graduate. I’m wondering whether we will be staying in Sheffield, or whether we will move on to pastures green; and whilst I know that there is plenty of time and God will show us where we should be, I’m trying to plan ahead already!
That discontented part of me (which will always be there, no matter where we live, or what we have!) walks the streets around here, looking at the houses. It remembers the ones it likes, sees beautiful doors, nice lounges, bookcases and gardens. Although I have boards full of things I would like in my ideal home on pinterest, I am actually really happy here and now.
I love the fact we have so much more room in this house than in any of our previous homes; that we should be able to stay here for the next two years, that we have been lucky enough to be able to decorate, albeit a small amount. I relish the built in dining room cupboards, the little desk under the skylight in the attic, the range and the mantlepieces. Yes, our house is a little draughty, yes, if we owned it we could fix various things in the way we wanted or could get rid of the gorgeous textured wallpaper, but this is home. Perhaps not forever, perhaps not the perfect home, but what house will be…
After two years of living in this city, after starting university, finding a church, having a child, I do truly feel properly settled here now. I’m not sure where we will be in two years, whether we will stay here, but know it would be hard to move, now that we are so settled. With a great church, support network, friends and the odd family member around, it is great to be here. Wherever we live, something could be better; I sometimes wish Sheffield was nearer the lush green countryside I was used to in Gloucestershire, and closer to our parents, but if we leave Sheffield, we will miss other things whilst gaining others.
Being happy here and now is my main concern, and I’m trying to stop my dreaming head from wandering off without me and leading me into discontent. We are very fortunate, and I’m glad to be home.